In a corner

Ever had the feeling of being trapped in a corner with limited space to move around thinking how you should plan your next move without being able to see the options available in front of you? 

Well I would say I've been through it many times before and each time it gets harder and harder. I've tried and tried so hard to get out of this kind of situations and never get back in but somehow it keeps haunting you. It's as though there's no end to it. Looks like I would have to draw up a plan to fully get myself out of this bind before either one of us gets seriously burnt or hurt.

It's been 3 years now living in this situation without being able to get out of it. I've sought many advices from my friends and family and the answers always comes back the same. Even though the answers are clear right now, I just don't know how to execute the plan. How do you tell someone who you're living with for the last 3 years that it's over and done. How do we get them to accept that the relationship is not working out at all. How do we break all the promises made 2 years back? 

I guess there's really no answer to all this question. I guess one of us has to take up the courage and tell it to the other person straight to the face and let the consequences of the event unfold. Even i had the courage to do so, when, how or where would be a good time for me to let it all out? These are the questions that has been haunting me for the last 6 months and I'm running out of time as it is getting closer to Chinese New Year. If this drags on pass Chinese New Year, then we will be expected to get married and I'm just not ready for it yet seeing the incompatibility between the both of us. You may think I'm not ready to commit to it but I just feel it's not the right person to start a family with. I'm thinking of the vow I made to myself and my future kids. I don't want them to go through what I've been through when I was a kid. 

If you browse through my previous blogs, you will see what I meant on this. I'm really stuck in a corner not knowing what to do. Should I let it all out and get it over and done with or should I wait for a better time to do it? I'm hoping for some kind of miracle or some light to hit me with the answers. So while pondering of what, when or how to do it, I was hoping that I could get some comments from the readers as well.

Till my next post.....

Cheers

p/s - Happy Halloween