Trick or Treat

Yesterday was kinda funny and scarry at the same time. I didn't know what to expect or feel when I was told that my father had lost his memory. Reason being because my dad was kind of a joker as well which lead me to think is this for real or is this another JJ & Rudy's Gothca programs.

While talking to him on the phone while driving to his house from my office, I was still unsure whether he was joking or was he serious. It took me about 20 minutes to get to his place and I spent 18 minutes on the phone just to make sure he stays there and won't go out wandering about while trying to recollect his memory. 

Fearing for the worse I made sure that he was there until I get there and then at least I could see what was going on. At least then I can pass the judgement whether it is another hoax or this is for real. 

My sister was panicking and she was lost grip of her  self already at that time. Thanks to Adeline, the both of them made it to my dad's place in a cab to analyse the whole situation. 

By the time I arrived, he was on the phone with someone and he was going through the whole I had with him just a few minutes earlier. The questions he asked me and the person on the phone was the same and I began to ask myself, what if this time he's for real. Now what should I do? What can I do? All sort of stuff started pouring into my mind and I knew I had to remain calm while handling this delicate situation.

I started asking him a series of questions which he answered most of it correctly but on certain questions his answers were rather decades old. From there, I knew he had temporary amnesia. I knew I had to do something but what was I to do as he kept asking me the same questions over and over and over and over again. (i.e Why are you here?)

Luckily, after 3 hours of Q&A he slowly regained his consciousness and began to remember things again. After asking the same series of questions that I asked earlier, he managed to get the answers right this time. Seeing that he is able to answer correctly, I tried picking deeper into his memory. Finally I found the answer to the mystery as to why he can't remember a damn thing.

This is due to his offending nature of his charecter. He likes to antagonize people and things. Recently, he has been antogizing & disturbing the wandering spirits either in his working place or the ones the roam the lift area of where he stays. This could be the main reason why he was like that yesterday. The other could be a charm placed on him because he sacked a poor performing staff.

Whateverthe reason was, I could not delay in bringing him to the temple so that we can find out the actual reason and get rid of the problem before it creates a bigger problem. Hopefully this is the end of it and he won't face this problem for another 10 years or more

Hope this serves us a lesson not to mess with unseen things.

Till my next blog.......

Cheers.

  

Quattro @ Avenue K

Just thought I'd upload some pics on Quattro @ avenue K to share with you guys. Do check it out. All pictures are a courtesy of AndyKho.com. For more pics on Quattro do head on to www.andykho.com 

Winter

Autumn

Autumn

Autumn

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Cheers.

p/s - Thanks to Andy for the lovely pics.

Undecided

After taking 2 steps back from the whole situation and analying it, I finally realised that I'm a bloody fool and should have looked at the whole situation clearly before making a stupid decision. I've been sad and down for the last few days and it finally became clear to me that I still love her and that I made a mistake by pushing her away from me.

It was a very painful decision which turned into a very well learnt lesson for the both of us. I always believed that each and everybody has got to have their own breathing space and if either one of us does not have that space, then it will be difficult for the both of us to live together. After discovering that we need to have space for ourselves, she has begun to understand the whole mechanism of our relationship. Whe you do not grant your partners or spouses their own space, then they will feel stress and all bent out of shape because there isn't any outlet for them to realise their stress at the end of the day. This will hurt the relationship more and we will have more divorce cases in this world.

Even though I've not told her about what I've decide on the way back to the office, I think she'll be the most happiest person in this world when she hears this from me. I know I may have ill treated her the last few days, but I feel that this is important for us to move on to the next level of our relationship as a lot of things and matters has been ironed out and each of us has our own adjustments and improvements that needs to be made.

I always believed that if a person trully loves the other, they will change for them no matter how hard it is and this is a sign of true love. One way or the other, we have to make our own sacrifices to make the relationship work out at the end of the day. If this can't be done, then he or she is not the right one for you. 

Some people believe that looks is everything when it comes to choosing a spouse but I would say it is not true as I've seen many couples that is not the best looking people on this face of the earth but still they love each other with all their hearts. For me, a wife would be a person who takes good care of you, your home and also your children. She does not neccessaryly has to be a beauty paegent contestant or winner to qualify for the role but as long as she knows how to take care of everything, shares your problems with you and keep the finances in line, then it would the ideal person to share your life with.

Well...it was a well learnt lesson and I'm sure to do the right thing for a better future.

Till my next post........

Cheers

It's over I guess

Now that the air has been cleared between the both of us and we are going our own separate ways, I guess it's time for her to concentrate on her career and looking for a better boyfriend. It was a very tough decision that I had to make and I also had to put up a very strong front to fend off her weeping face throughout last night. Even though in my heart I wanted her back but I had no choice of the matter as I have too many things to concentrate on at the time being and I needed to be alone to accomplish that.

Even up to this morning, my heart was still aching when she pleaded with me to consider our relationship that we have built throughout the years and all I said is it's over. I could see the pain in her eyes when she gave me back the ring that I gave to her as she left the house, I was so sad that I didn't know what to do. What is it that I'm actually suppose to do? At times I feel as though she's a burden to me and on other times, she's like an angel to me.

What is the right path for me to take? Should I just stick with the decision that I've made and move on? I really don't know what has happened to me as I've never doubted each and every decision that I've made throughout my life. Why must this happen now? 

My friend told me once that if a man can keep to a straight face to face off the tears of a woman you love crying right in front of you for the last hour, then that person is a damn meaner. I've successfully fended off her while she cried when we were ending our chapter. Does this mean I'm a damn meaner?

I guess, I'll have to let God decide whether we are meant for each other or not. I sincerely hope that she finds someone better that deserves her love and care and have a happy family together as I think I can't give that to her.

Is it finally over??

After two and a half years of turmoil, could it be finally over? Have I succesfully ended the relationship that has tought me many things about relationships? Am I being a selfish bastard?

This are the few questions that has been playing in my head for the past hour or so. I've decided to end my relationship with my girlfriend whom has been living together with me for the past 2 over years. I know I broke her heart when I said it but I had no choice as I needed to let go of my burdens in order to move on in life. 

I was on the brink of losing my job if I did not spend more time doing the things I had to do even though I was off duty. After six months of lecturing and warnings received from my boss, it was all turned to deaf ears. He finally got fed up and decided to tell me off in a private meeting that I'm incompetent and irresponsible. Although we have worked together in the past, he always tried to pull me up from the shit that I always get myself into.

After serious considerations, I finally made the hardest decision in my entire life. I finally took the bitter medicine and called it quits and break her heart. Even though it was not a decision I would like to make but after considering the odds of carrying on which did not favour us much, it was better off for the both of us to call it off before someone gets really hurt at the end of the day.

To me now, it's my career that is the most important as I've wasted many years between jobs and trying to make ends meet at the end of each month. By now most of you might think of me as a selfish bastard but I had no choice over the matter as I needed a steady career more than a roller coaster relationship. I've tried my level best to make this relationship work out but unfortunately, it was not the right one as we never could click on.

I feel kinda depressed now as it is never easy to get over a relationship that you put your complete love, heart and soul to make it happen. After all the sacrifices that we have made, it is really depressing that we have to end up this way. 

I really wish she finds her true happiness with the person that can really take care of her and make her happy always as I don't think I deserve her.

In a corner

Ever had the feeling of being trapped in a corner with limited space to move around thinking how you should plan your next move without being able to see the options available in front of you? 

Well I would say I've been through it many times before and each time it gets harder and harder. I've tried and tried so hard to get out of this kind of situations and never get back in but somehow it keeps haunting you. It's as though there's no end to it. Looks like I would have to draw up a plan to fully get myself out of this bind before either one of us gets seriously burnt or hurt.

It's been 3 years now living in this situation without being able to get out of it. I've sought many advices from my friends and family and the answers always comes back the same. Even though the answers are clear right now, I just don't know how to execute the plan. How do you tell someone who you're living with for the last 3 years that it's over and done. How do we get them to accept that the relationship is not working out at all. How do we break all the promises made 2 years back? 

I guess there's really no answer to all this question. I guess one of us has to take up the courage and tell it to the other person straight to the face and let the consequences of the event unfold. Even i had the courage to do so, when, how or where would be a good time for me to let it all out? These are the questions that has been haunting me for the last 6 months and I'm running out of time as it is getting closer to Chinese New Year. If this drags on pass Chinese New Year, then we will be expected to get married and I'm just not ready for it yet seeing the incompatibility between the both of us. You may think I'm not ready to commit to it but I just feel it's not the right person to start a family with. I'm thinking of the vow I made to myself and my future kids. I don't want them to go through what I've been through when I was a kid. 

If you browse through my previous blogs, you will see what I meant on this. I'm really stuck in a corner not knowing what to do. Should I let it all out and get it over and done with or should I wait for a better time to do it? I'm hoping for some kind of miracle or some light to hit me with the answers. So while pondering of what, when or how to do it, I was hoping that I could get some comments from the readers as well.

Till my next post.....

Cheers

p/s - Happy Halloween