Is it finally over??

After two and a half years of turmoil, could it be finally over? Have I succesfully ended the relationship that has tought me many things about relationships? Am I being a selfish bastard?

This are the few questions that has been playing in my head for the past hour or so. I've decided to end my relationship with my girlfriend whom has been living together with me for the past 2 over years. I know I broke her heart when I said it but I had no choice as I needed to let go of my burdens in order to move on in life. 

I was on the brink of losing my job if I did not spend more time doing the things I had to do even though I was off duty. After six months of lecturing and warnings received from my boss, it was all turned to deaf ears. He finally got fed up and decided to tell me off in a private meeting that I'm incompetent and irresponsible. Although we have worked together in the past, he always tried to pull me up from the shit that I always get myself into.

After serious considerations, I finally made the hardest decision in my entire life. I finally took the bitter medicine and called it quits and break her heart. Even though it was not a decision I would like to make but after considering the odds of carrying on which did not favour us much, it was better off for the both of us to call it off before someone gets really hurt at the end of the day.

To me now, it's my career that is the most important as I've wasted many years between jobs and trying to make ends meet at the end of each month. By now most of you might think of me as a selfish bastard but I had no choice over the matter as I needed a steady career more than a roller coaster relationship. I've tried my level best to make this relationship work out but unfortunately, it was not the right one as we never could click on.

I feel kinda depressed now as it is never easy to get over a relationship that you put your complete love, heart and soul to make it happen. After all the sacrifices that we have made, it is really depressing that we have to end up this way. 

I really wish she finds her true happiness with the person that can really take care of her and make her happy always as I don't think I deserve her.